Where Thoughts Unwind

2012-02-01T10:59:00.001+08:00

Hmm..first time blogging from my iphone..

Im so bored and tired at work..really cant wait for payday..haiya..

Hw m i dealing with life? Just like that..its like im living but at the same time..i feel dead..haha..dunno la..whatever happens happens..we cant change the flow of time..once u waste a second, u can never make up for it..once u waste an opportunity, it wont come knocking on your door..only certain exceptions are allowed though..

Anyways..today when i was bored at work and fyi i still am..i reminise my past about my very fun ex-gf, the beloved Qamarina Hanani..and until now..im still not happy with that insect-eyed azmeer..seriously im still not happy with him..

I knw after we broke up it was none of my freaking business to keep track of their lives..but i wanted to..and seriously..im not happy with him until now..he hits her drags her n causes physical abuse to her..to me that aint love bitch..to me, that is obsessed..worse of all u made her pregnant and have a daughter who is very very cute btw..u want her to go abortion and what did you do? Sit one corner and relek..work one day dont like quit..work one week dnt like quit..then u let Qamarina do all the work to save up for the abortion..and shes pregnant and you're not.......kau bodoh pe?

But if you are still with her taking care of YOUR daughter i dont mind..but u are enjoying life with another freaking person now how wrong is that? U never give nafkah..u club with your girlfriend..is this how beliah masjid behaves? Bring shame only..

And seriously, while u r out there enjoying urself, Qamarina is working her ass off just to support YOUR child..she works at a retail shop 7 days per week..7 days..and when she had her pay of $1600 from her literally 30 days of working, she is very happy..but are your doung anything to support your daughter? I dont think so! Seriously i pity my ex..not that she needs my pity coz she has a bf but that is a different story..her bf is a great guy btw..

I told her to upgrade herself and get o lvls..speaking of which, she dropped her o lvls when she was 17 coz you made her pregnant stupid! Im so pissed coz your destroyed her life! Argh..anws..i told her to upgrade herself and she said she aint got the luxury to study coz she has to support her daughter..its sad..stupid azmeer..go rot!

Haiya..when i was with Qamarina..i never lay a strong force on her..she was the one doing all the hittings and the slappings..i was the one abused..maybe its karma for abusing me? Hahaha..joking..

So guess ill just end my random rant here then..have to get back to work before they start to look for me..smell ya laters..

2011-12-06T23:19:00.007+08:00

Muhd Imran's

Ghost of Girlfriends Past

Ive been having a series of dreams involving my ex-lovers.

these dreams were simultaneous

and came right after the other in pairs.

these dreams came right after nani left.

2nd Ex..

1st dream

Qamarina Hanani bte Sulaiman

(found the picture in this blog's archives)

(taken when i was 16)

i was at her place.

apparently there was an event going on.

open house or something.

however, i wasnt there as a guest.

i was carrying my son.

my unborn son.

qaina was my wife.

we welcomed guest together..

and i remember clearly that her mother was there as well..

1st Ex

2nd dream

Nur Suhairina bte Samsudin

(forgive me for there are no photo of us together)

I was in the MRT with her.

she was leaning again the glass panel..

while i was in front of her in close proximity.

we were talking with each other.

the train stopped at this station..

and she went off leaving me behind..

all i could do was helplessly watch her leave.

3rd Dream

Nur Atiqa bte Jaafar

(photo taken during NPMCCFOC 2009)

surprise surprise..

she is not an ex-girlfriend.

however she was someone

who i was serious with at this one point of time..

now no more la..

now we have this love/hate relationship with each other..

but nevertheless..

still very good friends.

back to the dream.

we were in my room.

we were talking about stuffs.

i was on my bed and she on the opposite bed.

then a huge black figure appeared in front of us.

she started to panic and cry.

i called out to her to come to me.

i placed my hands on the side of her head..

and placed my forehead against hers..

i started to say prayers out loud.

3rd Ex

4th Dream

Nur Diyana bte Ramlan

(photo taken from this blog's archive)

(i dont store her photos no more)

i was in a musical.

singing and dancing on an open outdoor stage.

when everything was over..

she greeted me..

i was expecting someone else but since she was there,

i went to sit with her.

apparently it was new years eve or something

cause suddenly fireworks lit up the dark skies.

in my head..i was asking myself

"where is nani? why isnt she here?"

then dee looked at me and ask me..

"u have to choose between me or nani."

i answered

"it has and always been nani"

i got up..and then i woke up..

these 4 dreams are the dreams that i had of my exes..

up to date..

i still havent dream of nani yet..

i know dreams are caused by setan..

they play with your mind when u sleep.

but not all dreams are their plaything.

sometimes..dreams carry significant meanings..

if all dreams have a meaning hidden behind it..

i would really like to know..

what is the reason for me having these dreams..

ppl tend to say that dreams are opposites of what is happening in reality..

if that is the case..

then how does dejavu occurs?

ppl say when you dream..

your soul wonders around from place to place..

im guessing our souls can travel through time as well since it can cause dejavu..

but is it really possible?

whatever theory there are behind dreams..

i would really like to knw why i had these 4 dreams..

smell ya laters..

keywords: Fedora, Dreamcatcher, Pendant

2011-10-05T03:41:00.002+08:00

this is for you..

Khairun Nurhanani...

2011-10-03T00:55:00.002+08:00

my job...

my job is to keep on waiting..

2011-04-21T00:47:00.003+08:00

a new look..

a new start..

new semester..

time to get my game on..

so today wont be about gunpla..

will just be an update..

first week of school..

and i only have lessons for a day..

a day of going to class but not to study..

but to listen to teachers complaining bout stuffs..

haha..

for the special one..

i know you are the type to not read blogs..

but just in case u are reading..
lets take it a step at a time..

while enjoying each other's presence to the max..

okaye?

hee..

so nothing left to be said..

only that whoever owes me money..

just remember to pay back..

nanti akhirat aku tuntut tao..

hee..

takot kn?

then baya la..

haha..

hmm..

so thats it..

planning to start work during semester 2..

harap2 dpt manufacturing company instead of research company..

sungguh the tak sanggop nk buat research..

haha..

but in order to work..

have to pass for this semester..

insya'allah boleh..

nites ppl..

smell ya laters!!

2011-04-07T00:18:00.004+08:00

time for my gunpla update!!

so i didnt update for the whole of march..

lazy..

haha...

so for the month of march...

i got myself the five kits below..

all of them are high grades 1/144 scale gundams..

First Picture

top left: Seravee Gundam

Top right: Gundam 00 Raiser

Bottom left: Arios Gundam

Bottom Right: Cherudim Gundam

Second Picture

Seraphim Gundam

all five kits are from the Gundam 00 Season 2..

however collection not complete yet..

still go 1 more to go..hee..

and i broke the arios when assembling it..

managed to fix that with the wonders of cement and super glue..haha..

and its my second gundam 00 raiser kit..

planned to paint this one flat black..

but loved the pale blue..

so instead will paint the first one black..

haha..

so that is for the month of march..

sent a total of S$100 on all 5...

worth it la..

i got the 4 kits from toy-wave.com @ US$50 for all 4..

then got the seraphim from Hobby Point, a local store at S$20..

so total summaries to about S@100 plus plus..

hee..

so thats all for march..

as for april...

from the box art..

4 of them are from 1994..

this is from the G Gundam series..

4 are no grades and are in 1/144 scale..

Top left: Gundam Maxter

Top Right: High Grade G Gundam

Bottom left: Dragon Gundam

Bottom center: Bolt Gundam

Bottom right: Rose Gundam

all except g gundam are released back in the 1994..

while the g gundam is re-released in may 2010..

i got all five from hobbylink japan..

i heard a great much about hobbylink japan and wanted to try buying from them..

however..

when getting only one kit..

the shipping cost for ems is expensive..

when getting a bunch of kits..

the shipping cost drops a whole lot..

still waiting for the kit to arrive in mail..

cant wait to assemble all of them..

the four i got them at 400 yen each..

which cost around...S$6..

and the g gundam was on 30% off..

so got it for 1080 yen..

which is around S$16..

the 4 is hard to find in singapore..

while the re-release is damn easy..

however..with the shipping price..

guess its cheaper than the cost in singapore..

so i think i will buy from hlj again in future..

ouh and i had some free time 2 weeks ago..

the free time was like...3 hrs on this day only..haha..

and i spray painted my deathscythe hell custom...

really happy as to how it turned out to be..

hee

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so apart from gunpla..

there had been a terrible down in my life lately..

dont wanna talk bout it..

so dinamis ended 2 weeks ago..

a real eye opener..

had fun throughout and never regret a thing..hee..

2011-03-03T00:51:00.001+08:00

enjoys..

haha..

2011-02-16T23:17:00.003+08:00

hello there..
time for my gunpla update...
my dad still havent transferred me the money yet..
so im freaking broke now..
haiz..
at least January i had a so called blast..haha..

got my MG 00 Qanta last Dec
fixed it together and applied the water slide decal..
however..
i accidentally sprayed it white..
i dont know how that happened..
but when i got the time im gonna scrap the paint off..
hopefully...

January came..
and i got the 4 above...
top right: 1/144 scale High Grade Stargazer Gundam from Gundam Seed Stargazer..
top left: No Grade Chouryou Gerugugu from SD Gundam Sengokuden
bottom right: No Grade Ryubi Gundam from SD Gundam Sengokuden
bottom left: 1/144 scale High Grade Beginning Gundam from
Gunpla Builders Beginning G...

spent around..S$60+ for all of them..
got the stargazer and beginning at a local hobby store for like S$20plus each..
while i got the two sd kits for S$5 each at kiddy palace..
the sd kits were not bad...
didnt have any high expectations of it..
but the kits were ok...
as for beginning..
really love the design..
but dont quite like the new arm articulation that bandai made...
as for stargazer..
its awesome..
had fun building it..
really..
haha..

when February came..
i had no income at all..
but my girlfriend got me these two kits for my birthday..
left: 1/100 High Grade Gundam Deathscythe Hell Custom
right: 1/100 High Grade Wing Gundam Zero Custom
both are from the ova Gundam Wing Endless Waltz
the wing gundam zero custom have a master grade version of it..
but im saving money to get the katoki version of it predecessor..
same for the deathscythe..
the mg is coming out...
but im saving money for its katoki version predecessor..
im still not done with the two kits..
i need to get some sprays to spray the deathscythe..
as well as do some preshading for the wings of wing gundam..
i wanted these two because one represents the devil...
while one represents the angel..
haha..

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anyways..
something apart from gunpla...
Puncak Finals is next week..
cant wait for it..
exams is also next week..
that one can wait long long..
haha..
my gf is still not home..
i shall go to sleep first then..
nites ppl...

2011-02-13T16:54:00.002+08:00

just feel like i need a space to rant..
then i remembered i have this space..
talking to ppl?
since when are ppl there for me?
afterall..
i always do shits to them..
so why would they wanna be there for me right?

when i was with q..
everyone saw her..
but never saw me..
they would be like eh q lawa..
but no comments will be made for me..

guys will be coming up to her when im not around to ask for her number...
to get her personal contacts..
when im around..
they will just steal a smile or something..
eh hello??
im not invisible..
i can see..
i can hear u..
and guess what..
q loves the attention..
"hes just a friend" she would say..
so what am i then??
and point is..
she never made the attempt to tell those guys she have a gf..

so the same thing happening again now..
guys coming up to her..
ask for her number..
thank god she never revealed her number to them..
but still..
im her bf..
not just an insignificant dirt on her shoulder which can be brushed away just like that...
respect sikit..
dier dade mataer..
u dont go around and ask for an attached girl's number..

u guys might be thinking..
"but u asked for A's number? u contradicting urself?"
fyi..
i never asked for her number..
i never went up to her to get her number..
she was the one who got my number and told me to get her stuffs...
i didnt ask for her number..
so i dont ask for attached girls number...

favour uh ppl..
diyana ramlan is attached...
stop it uh..
im not invisible..
i can see..
i can hear...

2010-11-29T01:03:00.003+08:00

wondering who else reads my blog nowdays?
hehe..

so now the sch holidays for primary and secondary had started..
what a pain in the ass it has been..
the kids are sleeping at 1 to 2 in the morning making alot of noise..
which means that i dont get the privacy that i want..
cant play games without being disturb..
cant watch videos without being disturb...
cant listen to songs without being disturb..
cant read without being disturb..
cant fix my mg gundams without being disturb..
it irrits me..
ish..

me and gf are good...
still going strong..
im actually amazed at myself about how much i trust her..
its not heckcare or anything..
but i trust her that she will not do anything stupid..
hee..

anyways..
the understudies have already been announced..
i could still remember the time when hakim announced my name to be head of pdk..
seems so long ago..
well..
good luck eh to the next head..
being head is not just about the name..
being head is more than that..
its not about being famous and be well known..
its not about being recognise due to the works that you have done..
being a head means having a heavy burden all by yourselves..
being head means you have to ensure that your departments is kept alive..
being head means you have to talk to andrew to get forms and such approved..
being head means u have to submit forms after forms every month..
being head means u have to open yourself to humiliation and accept criticism..
in other words..
being head means you have to accept shits willingly..
so next heads..
be ready...

anyways..
last sunday was the dikir comp..
was freaking awesome..
haha..
i may have lost someone who i thought was a friend..
but god was generous enough to give me more in return for the one he took..
thank you...
you may have tried to psycho the guys that he was making lies about you..
but i know better..
anyways..
cant wait to get next month's allowance...
im gonna get the master grade mg 00 Qan(t)..
its from the movie Gundam 00 Awakening of the Trailblazers..
some says its pronounced as QanTa..
but i call it QanTi..hee..
watch the movie at Sinema@Old School last week..
and the movie was awesome...
and the Qan(t) was awesome..
heh..
then the following month..
im thinking of getting myself master grade mg Unicorn Gundam.. (S$79.90)
then for my birthday..
i think im gonna get perfect grade pg Astray Gundam..(S$300+)
hmm..
might be hard to get that astray....
let see how when the time comes..
hee..

ok so ive been ranting quite alot already..
guess its time to call it a night then..
nights people..
smell ya laters..

2010-10-31T01:00:00.003+08:00

i said some stuffs that i dont know would make such a big deal..
since this is an open blog i shall not say wad..
i said it on twitter..
only those who follows me can read it..
and its 47..
the fren whom i told it to..
had 37 followers..
out of which only 26 are people and not ads and such..
that makes a total of 73 people..
and some are overlapped with mine..
so lets just put it at 70..
70 people read what i wrote about you..

and then u had to take revenge and humiliate me on fb..
lets see..
your friend list makes a total of 422 people..
422 people saw what you have to wrote about me..
and if you think they dont know its about me..
look again..
u put my name on it..
so 422 saw u cursing and swearing at me..
and only 70 people saw me saying that you are jealous..
and u say i have no right to be pissed about this..

haiz..
what to do right?
i mean..
who am i?
im just a replaceable guy in your life...
you are still young and naive..

2010-10-18T22:20:00.002+08:00

Day 10: The One I Dont Talk to as Often

so guess right now i will tell you guys more about her..
her name is husna fatinah..
sometimes people call her haswah..
haha..
and we have been friends since sec 1..

well we didnt start it off as friends..
when we start it off...
she hated me..
hated me for reasons i dont know..
then sec 2 we talked to each other..
cause we were in the same group for IPW..
from there we became friends..
ouh ya..
she was my dance partner for sec 1 campfire..
haha..

we were classmates throughout secondary school..
so common sense that we are best friends la..
and we share our secrets..
heck we even enrolled for driving together..
and now both of us are stuck at driving..together..
haha..
i used to talk to her alot..
from anything sensible to anything stupid..
just name it la..
but ever since we got into np..
we seldom talk..
we are in the same campus under same school..
and we hardly talk or meet..
guess that is my fault for being busy...
sorry na..

anyways..
its been a while since she and me and fadhil and ihsan really had a hang out...
wish we could do it some days..
yeah?

2010-10-18T04:04:00.002+08:00

Day 9: The One I Want to Meet

well..to be honest..
i never met 3 of my grandparents..
yayi karsoon passed away when i wasnt born..
nyayi sarni passed away months before i was born..
and yayi mo aka samat passed away when i was 2..
hard for me to remember you know..

why do i want to meet them...
i never felt what it was like to have a grandparent being there for you..
true my only grandmother is still alive..
but im not that close to her..
cause she actually support my dad getting another wife..
cause of that i dont get along..
she is 80+ now..
cant walk..
cant talk properly..
but went to visit her during raye..
well every raye i visit her...
and she remembers me..
but she only remembers me as a kid..
so i had to tell her that it was me..
i said..
"nyayi..ni yan..yan...imran nyayi.."
and when i said imran..
she was like oh yan..da besar ko..
she didnt say it fluently though..
just barely make out the words myself..
and my brother who was raised by my aunt..
she remembers him as well..
even though im not close to her...
there is a sense of love towards her..
afterall..shes my granmother...

and nyayi sarni..
i never met her..
just listened to the many stories about her through my mom, aunts, and sis...
and my eldest bro also..
and the thing is..
when i was a kid..
about 4..
i had a dream about how she passed away..
it was like she was just in front of me..
and when i told my mom of that dream..
she said it was my grandmother that passed away..
the exact same way as my dream was..
so yeah..
mom have a picture of nyayi sarni months before she passed away..
mom also have a picture of yayi karsoon..
the picture was and still is old..
my mom was like 6 in that photo...

so guess thats it..
i really want to meet my grandparents...

2010-09-06T12:05:00.002+08:00

Day 8: The Favorite Internet Friend

guess i got none..
haha...
but i do of one person who have loads..
and im impressed..

see the maksalleh in the pic?
well he is the one im refering to..
his name is Nic Shields..
he is from Australia..
got to know him through izni..
and everytime he is here...
he will never fail to meet any of his friends that he made at fb..
talk about big networking..
haha..

honestly speaking..
he is a great and funny guy..
u guys should get to know him..
haha...
and oh ya..
he has a good voice too..
tell him to sing malay songs also can..
haha..

2010-09-04T14:32:00.003+08:00

Day 7: The Ex Girlfriend/Crush

ok i know im supposed to do this consecutively..but bloody broadband have to bail out on me..
so once in a while then...
anyways..
today is about the Ex..

i have a lot of people in mind...
but ill save their story for later..for now..
lets talk about..
Hana Diyana Abdul Kahar..
well..
she is not an ex-girlfriend..
but she is an ex-crush..

so we met during NPSU FOC'08..
it was freshmen orientation...
in 2008..hey its been 2 yrs..
anyways...i always see my friends getting hooked during camps..
and then in the end they never last...
but then i never thought i will be hooked myself...

so it was a 4 day camp..
and we didnt talk to each other during the first day..
god she didnt even see me...
but i saw her alright..
and was overjoyed when i saw a 3 on her arm..
the same number that i had on mine..meaning that we were groupies..
so first day was basically like that..

i can tell you the details of how we met and so on...
but choose not to..
so find out yourselves..
haha..
anyways..
it ended quite abruptly and not to mention very hurting..
she did not reply my texts for a week..
and then suddenly text me that she is flying off to Canada...
and that we cant work it out..it was a blow for me..
went home straight away after arriving for another camp..
so yeah..

well shes back in Singapore..
last saw her was during Piala Suara Serumpun..
had no idea what she was doing there..
and glad she took my advice to stay with her bf...
hee..
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saw someone with the same birthday as me..
dammit...

2010-08-29T16:53:00.002+08:00

Day 6: The Stranger

it was after Krakatoa training at woodlands cc..
so after training..
me and joy wanted to take the train back home..
we tapped in and took the up-riding escalator..
so..
otw up..
i noticed a girl taking the down-riding escalator was looking at my direction...
joy was talking to me but i was practically looking at her..
tu tkpe..
after we passed each other..
i turn around to look at her..
and she turn around to look at me too..
haha...
and im like..
chey aku hensem..
haha...
so dats dat..
haha!!

2010-08-29T03:35:00.001+08:00

Day 5: The Dreams
A friend of mine said..
when u have a dream and then you wake up..
u have two choices..
one..
u go back to sleep and continue dreaming...
or..
you wake up and pursue it..
its deep..

when i was young..
my dream was becoming a doctor..
because that is what my mom would want..
i gave up that dream all ago..
but now..
i dont know what i wanna be..
isnt is amazing that when you are young..
anything seems to be possible..
but now..
everything just seems impossible..
i have to admit..
the course that im taking now..
is not to my liking..
but to just sooth my mom's heart..
just to impress her..
i dont know if i will continue this line of study..
cause frankly speaking..
i hate it..
nah i dont know..
just feel so tired and lazy nowdays..
too tired to even dream bout anything...

2010-08-25T20:03:00.002+08:00

Day 4: The Brother

well..
this post will go out to my brother..
Muhd Irwan Samuri

even though we grew up under different guidance and teaching..
i still feel that he is the only one that i can relate to...
whatever that i went through..
he understands it and still give me advices about it..
he is only one in my family to be open to anything..
and i feel comfortable talking to him without hiding anything from him..
even though he lives in the east and me in the west..
i still feel that both of us are the closest siblings in the family..
whatever it is..
ill always be there to lend him a hand...

2010-08-23T22:03:00.003+08:00

Day 3: The Parents

this will be all about my mom and dad...
first..
to my mom...

Hjh Sopeah bte Karsoon
she has been there to hold me since i was young..
i can say alot of things uh...
but to summarise it..
i love her for all that she has had and going to do for me..
no matter it is for my good or for my bad..
i will still love her..

Samuri bin Samat
well samat is not my granddads name..
my granddads name is Moh..
typical jawe name..
i just found out he passed away when i was 2..
ok back to topic..
he left when i was 9..
and i practically grew up without him..
when he comes back..
he just makes things unsettling..
but now im 19..
10 yrs have passed...
and i forgive him..
cause hes my dad..
without him..
i wouldnt be hu i am today..
i still love him though...
if i could have one wish...
i wish that i have my complete family again..
one which is happy all the time..
not like now..

lets wait for 2morrow for the next episode..
smell ya laters

2010-08-23T02:11:00.002+08:00

so lets continue...

Day 2: The Crush

i love my girl and will continue doing so..
so whats the point of having a crush?
it is called a crush..
coz it will only crush your relationship..
haha..
so dats the end of day 2...

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another story...
a good fren of mine finally decides to give a gerl a chance into his life..
like..
at last..
haha..
and he is taking things slowly..
like Dek said..
the happy ending of a story book is at the last page..
so why rush..
hope he goes well with triana..

nites ppl!!

2010-08-22T05:11:00.002+08:00

So i guess its my turn to do the 30 day letter challenge..
dont know wad it is?
go google it.
haha..

Day 1
The Best Friend

if you ask me to choose between them
i would never choose..
coz the both have done so much..
and they know me well..
the best friend im refering to is Fadhil and Zaidi

Fadhil
well...
we have been classmates eversince we step foot into hkss..
till the day we took our graduation certs...
he knows my secrets..
and i know his..
and he is always there to listen to my rants..
recent events made me more comfortable to talk about my past with him..
coz now..
i feel that he wont judge..
coz he went through just the same shit..
for that..
blood brothers...
haha

Zaidi
well..
the idiot is practically my first friend in hkss..
i missed the times when he was shorter that me..
haha..
well..
zaidi never fails to listen to me rant about things..
and we never fail to argue about the difference in our ideologies..
and he is always there when i am in need of help..
greatly appreciated..
brothers for life...

all in all

these 2 ppl can really withstand my crappiness..
and my damn irritating attitude..
for that..
thank you guys for being good friends..

2010-06-28T14:17:00.002+08:00

haha..
im bored...
enjoys..

2010-06-27T02:18:00.002+08:00

the thought never comes to mind..
and i thought i was ok with it..
until the conversations i had with my friends about the matter...
dont worry they dont know bout it..
just that they brought up the matter...
and that was when it bothered me..
i needed to know..
and now i do..
the feeling is like having your heart stabbed over and over again...
6 times...
those feelings of ecstasy should never have existed in the first place...
and then..
it happened..
i didnt wash my face..
but my cheeks were wet..
and soon it was drenched..

my mind is like a maze..
or a puzzle..
i dont know what to think..
and everything just seems god damn confusing..
i really dont know what to think anymore...
haiz...

2010-06-21T23:58:00.003+08:00

usually ppl would say that a picture says a thousand words..
but in this case..
i will say..
a jigsaw tells a millions...
love u..
and enjoy these funny pictures...

2010-06-10T01:30:00.002+08:00

i dont know why...
but ever since i met u..
u were all i think about..
you made it easy for me to forget bout the previous R karat..
because u are more than what she is..

im happy when im with you..
you make me forget everything..
and showed me what it means to be happy again..
for that i thank you very much..

the feelings i have for you are strong..
and i dont want it to die..
i dont want to delay and risk losing you..
so now..
im taking this risk..

its been 2 yrs since i last be in a relationship..
i forgot how to be a bf..
therefore i need you to guide me step by step..

Nur Diyana Ramlan
are you willing to risk it all..
and be more than just friends..
with me who have lost touch in everything?
are you willing to enter a relationship with me?
please give me a sign..
i love you..

2010-05-31T00:57:00.002+08:00

a lot of things happen when you were away..

and not a moment pass without me thinking about u..
when people asked..
eh how u and her...
and i will just reply..
dont talk to me bout her..shes not worth it..
but deep down..
i know better...

i know you love him a lot..
and you told me that nothing can come between you two..
but hey..
i just cant help it...
i miss talking to you..
and i miss your R karat...
haiz..
i swore i delete your number from my phone..
its gone...
but i cant delete your number from my lecture notes..
cause i dont want to forget your number...

i wanna move on..
why is it getting so much harder each time?
i wanna say..
bye bye A..
and hello D..
will i have the strength and courage to do that..
hey..
it took me 2 yrs to move on from Q..
going to wonder how long this is gonna be...

nites...

2010-05-22T02:12:00.002+08:00

been so tired lately..
assignments not done..
lazy go work..
everything just seems so unimportant..

"every time you pretend to love,
you impoverish yourself more and more.
Love has great potential to enrich your life.
But if you are just playing a role,
pretending to love,
it's only going to poison you.
Because you are teaching yourself that it's just a game,
and slowly but surely you will lose the capacity to open in love."

i couldnt agree more with the quotes above..
i feel myself getting more and more uninterested in these so called love..
and only find things that may just distract..
im losing myself..

and i know u wont read anymore..
but seriously..
i miss your presence...
even though im trying my best to move on and distract myself..
but its just too hard..
im scared A...

2010-05-19T00:41:00.002+08:00

i feel calm whenever the conversation starts..
it makes me feel at ease..
and never fails to make me laugh..
ah belo jek..

life have been busy..
just the way i want it to be..
and as days go by..
the tiredness of my body..
grew stronger and stronger..
i need a break..
but when i have a break..
i wont be distracted anymore..
haiz..
life is full of contradiction..

nites..

2010-05-14T01:06:00.002+08:00

well..
there are ups..
and then there are the never ending downs..
life just never fails to keep me entertained...

meeting my sec sch friends this weekend..
and if we were still talking with each other..
i would really like it if u can come along..
i really miss u A..

its been a week since i last went to iluma..
so freaking tired now..
my body just refused to let me do stuff..
all it wants is rest..
ouh well..
what to do..

nites ppl..

2010-05-11T00:16:00.002+08:00

muhammad raif bin muhammad rashid..

this little devil had stuck with me eversince i came here..
cute la si kecik ni..

well trying to adapt to a new home..
hopefully its better this time..
and raif is disturbing me now..
nites..

2010-05-10T00:22:00.002+08:00

everything in life seems broken now..
a horrible mothers day it had been...
and i dont think i will ask for more..
coz i had enough pain to last me for the rest of my life..

and u know who u are..
if u are reading this..
just so u know i miss u a lot..

haiz..
lets just continue with lifes routine shall we?
school..dikir...sleep..
school...work...sleep..
it sucks..
but at least it keeps me occupied..
nites...

i just remembered..
that time Zan told me pay was coming in..
and i said really?
and he said..
eh ko kerje tk igt gaji ehk..
and i could only laugh..
i dont work for the money..
but for the distraction...
bye ppl..

2010-05-06T18:56:00.001+08:00

it hurts..
coz u left without any explanation..
haiz..

but hey..
we are and were nothing to begin with..
sorry i got too carried away..
so im out of your life now..
enjoy..
goodbye..

2010-04-21T23:19:00.006+08:00

i got lost halfway through my journey..
but the forest that i was lost in was peaceful and serene...
i began to love it..
and thought that i found what i was looking for..
time passed by..
and i suddenly woke up..
the trees didn't want me there..
i was disturbing their peace..
and i realised..
it was time for me to carry on my journey..
and to not disturb the peace anymore..
"I'm sorry to have disturb your peace..
it will be hard for me to carry on without looking back..
but i will try my best..
and keep on searching for that special thing I'm looking for..
thanks for everything..
it was fun while it last.." said i..

Good Luck for the Future...

Parting is such sweet sorrow,
That I shall say good night till it be morrow.
M.Imran

2010-04-20T01:53:00.000+08:00

this is still very funny..
haha..

2010-04-19T22:31:00.001+08:00

seriously..
this running nose is killing me..
and she said dont see her coz im sick..
no way thats happening..
haha..

2010-04-18T22:21:00.001+08:00

To my R karat..
please cheer up and be happy..
ill always be here to catch u when u fall..
so please smile..

2010-04-18T03:08:00.003+08:00

why give you a stalk of sunflower..
when i can give you a whole field of it..

i wanna see you again..
R karat..

2010-04-15T00:34:00.001+08:00

i miss Jiwo Jiro..
but i miss the rusted R more..

2010-04-11T18:02:00.002+08:00

"When i was drunk..
i cried for someone i didn't love...
When i am sober..
i couldn't cry for the one i love..."
-M.Imran

2010-04-11T00:31:00.003+08:00

"my mind is here but im thinking of you
i wanna see u, i wanna talk to you
you're always in my head but dont ever go away
coz hu knows what comes next i may not be prepare

you make me feel like im on top of the world
a day without you and the sky falls from above
wad does it mean is this wad they call love
because if it is i'll say its so wonderful

week one was damn but then i saw you
week two was in and i need to know you
week three went by thought i was already doom
but when things start to looked so gloom week four came right through

you make me feel like im on top of the world
a day without you and the sky falls from above
wad does it mean is this wad they call love
because if it is i'll say its so wonderful

whats going on all of this just look insane
it all seems wrong coz u have a boyfriend
i must pull out while i still have all the chance
but its too late its too bad coz im never goin back

you make me feel like im on top of the world
a day without you and the sky falls from above
wad does it mean is this wad they call love
because if it is i'll say its so wonderful"

the only song i managed to complete..
The A Song...
enjoys...

2010-04-09T23:18:00.002+08:00

events that happened today..
makes me realised..
of how much a bad person i am..
maybe bad would be an understatement...
evil would be precise...
ive done this before..
and swore to never do it again..
looks like contradiction bit me in the ass again...

the love you have shown me..
made me realised..
that sometimes..
nothing seems as easy as it is...
try as i may..
but breaking that love would just seem impossible..
and not to mention..
inhumane..

so tell me now...
what m i supposed to do?
now that u are stuck in my head?

2010-04-06T02:14:00.000+08:00

three simple words..
i miss you..

2010-04-05T01:17:00.002+08:00

water is the basic necessity in life...
without it..life will end..

take a look at the photo above..
a wise old "woman" once said..
take a look at the ripples..
see how slow it starts..
and how far it spreads..
but in order for it to spread...
someone have to start the ripple..

when i heard it the first time..
i didnt know what it actually meant..
but now i do..

when u want something..
no matter how difficult it seems to be..
u just need to start it..
and once started..
everything will fall into place..
u just need to have the courage to start it..

and i will pluck up my courage..
to tell..
and from there...
just go with the flow..

smell ya laters..

2010-04-02T23:19:00.002+08:00

life...
the exact definition of everything on Earth..
life gives energy..
life is the spirits that is amongst us..
life is also the hand of fate that revolves around us..
but however..
why can life be so wonderful...
and yet cruel?

life for me has not been easy..
i had a shelter above me..
was forced out into someone else's..
moved back again...
and again being forced out..
life if tormenting me in every way possible..

i dont mind all that..
but what i do mind is...
why life...
keeps preventing me from having what i always wanted..
being that kind of person for 3 times already..
m i supposed to be one again?
be an evil guy who ruin the life of others..
just for the sake to be happy..
am i to be that guy again?
is that what my cursed life supposed to be like?
if thats the case..
id be happy..
to give up my happiness...
just so i wont be that person again..

i wanna reach for the stars...
for they are the light..
that do not depend on others to shine...
they are independent..
they are one...

smell ya laters peeps...

2010-02-15T22:53:00.003+08:00

to be able to fly..
means being able to spread the wings and be free...
but...
if u are able to fly...
but at the same time tied to a string..
is that considered as being free?
or just plain tied down?

i wanna spread my wings...
and not get too tied down by things..
while others desire so much to be put down..
than being free...

i wish i was bird..
being able to fly high and not dependent on anything...
rather than a kite..
only allowed to fly as high as the string allows...
and depended too much on the winds...

i wish i was free...

2010-01-04T01:47:00.003+08:00

hello...
macam da mati gitu kan blog aku..
heh...
well..
alot of things have been happening..
and 2010 is here..
so this will be my first entry for 2010..
but hopefully it wont be the last...

so last friday was my good friends engagement..
nurisabella..
at first we were not that close..
but lame kelamaan we became very good friends..
this will be the story of how i met her..

she entered hkss when we were in sec 2..
that was in 2005...
she came from SS..
at first, she was like the tomboyish girl from everywhere...
so i didnt bother to talk to her..
then during the end of 2005..
there was the PSL camp..
and i was in the same group as her..
at first we were not that close..

if you ask me when i started to get close to her..
i would just tell you i dont know..
cause i cant remember.
in 2006..
we just became close..
council investiture happened in mid 2006..
i was head of Management Leaders..
while she was head of Sports Leaders..
from there..we became real tight..

then Student Leaders Overseas Trip to Cambodia..
in 2007..
we were very close...
so close that i told her everything bout me..
well not everything..
but those important things..

after graduation...
we were apart..
but still close..
and i tell you..
we can talked about anything and everything under the sun..
i used to remember she used to call me at night..
and pester me to conference with Fai..
who is her ex..
and during the conference..
i will be the "lamp post"..
haha..
memories..

then 2010..
she got engaged..
and she looked beautiful by the way..
very beautiful..
like her "cousin" shasha says..
"Princess Bella"
and for the first time ever..
when i saw her..
i was speechless..
i came into her room..
took a photo with her..
and left..
cause i had to topic to talk to her..
for the first time..
i got nothing to talk to her..
and seriously..
i will miss her..
cause shes one of my greatest friend from sec sch...
haiz..

belle..
if you are reading this..
i wanna say something that i didnt say on your engagement day...
Congratulations on your engagement..
sorry if i tried to psycho you out of it many many times..
heh..
and be happy with him..
and never forget this friend of yours..
happy happy selalu..

when will it be my turn?
hmm??
heh..
smell ya laters...

2009-12-02T00:50:00.002+08:00

have u ever wished that..
just once...
u could turn back the time..
and change one thing...
that one thing that cause a catalytic change to ur life...
a change that is so drastic..
so drastic that you'd only wish that it was a dream..

have you ever wished that...
you could control time..
when everything is going too fast...
too fast that u dont know wad just happened..
and ull wished that u can control time..
to slow down the process of degradation...
and seeing things slowly as each on unveils...

have you ever wished that...
you could stop time..
and be the only one moving...
isolating yourself from the dying world...
isolating yourself from the never ending troubles...
isolating yourself from the pain and suffering done to you...
isolating yourself just so that you can protect urself from more harm...
isolating yourself to heal your unhealing wounds...

the wounds may heal...
but the scars will never fade...
keep on wishing...
who knows it may just come true...

2009-11-25T00:01:00.000+08:00

nothing more to be said..

2009-11-03T16:04:00.002+08:00

fuck life...

fuck everything...

i dont give a damn anymore...

for what i know...

im beginning to hate everything now...

fucking lifes been giving me fucking problems one after each other...

fucking shits been happening..

and fucking decisions are made...

fucking comments given...

fuck...

i need a fucking break from fucking everything...

fuck...

shut the fuck off...

n dont expect to hear a fucking thing anymore from this page...

fuck off...

2009-10-14T01:33:00.003+08:00

after our press thingy..

just wanna sae..
i really look forward to jiwo jiro..
i really look forward to working with the cast again..
i really look forward to working with the professional musicians again..

who would have thought that it would be sooo damn fun..
tearing up ur shirts..
putting on make up to make ur face dirty..
running around in that condition..
haha..

so im still waiting for cik farhanah..
to upload the pix from her cam..
then i can show u my mak nya picture..
haha..

ouh ya..
tix for jiwo jiro is on sales now...
can buy it at sistic..
costing 19bux per tix..
plz come down to watch us..
it will be on the 15th and 16th January..
yes got 2 shows..
so grab ur tix now..
haha..

smell ya laters...

ps..my package still havent arrive...
boo...

2009-10-13T01:39:00.003+08:00

Jiwo Jiro fulldressed rehearsal
nk tao knape sume muke burok n baju koyak?
because we r potraying org2 yg kurang...
enlarge gamba nie kn...
n u can see my face like zombie..
haha..

sempat2 amek gamba..

well 2morrow is the short performance...
good luck to us all..
pls make sure i wake up at 9
n remind me to bring along that drum..
thanx..

smell ya laters.

2009-10-08T00:53:00.002+08:00

last sun..
went out with 4d plus hazwan.
haha..
didnt go to alot of places...
but the times spent 2gether was meaningful...

these are the grp of ppl that i love..
the grp of ppl that i will always depend on...
i will never give them up for anything else...
Kampong Tiaraps jln raye on tue...
it is a date to remember..
6th october 2009

no matter how far apart each of us will grew up to be..
just remember that the bonds we have are special..
and are worth it..
nothing in this lifetime...
can have the same value as the bonds we have now..
lets treasure each other..
and never fear of losing each other...
just remember..
we have each other to fall back on...

smell ya laters frens...

2009-10-02T23:42:00.003+08:00

do you know?
that in every group of friends..
there will always be one person..
who is the stupidest..lamest...and always not so serious..
haha..
i feel like im that person...
just appreciate that i have these group of good people as my frens...

----------------------------

mey is currently overseas...
hopefully the weather there is good..

smell ya laters...

2009-10-01T16:49:00.002+08:00

group photo at mey's hse..

so raye with hkss peps went smooth..
eventhough very2 last minute i must sae...
very nice to meet all of them again and raye until 1+am..
for me la..
for them..
3 am still at last hse...haha...

meeting them again this saturday..
gonna be nice...

and good luck to mey..
hu is currently overseas...
i cant remember whether its Vietnam or Philippines..
but nevertheless..
good luck to her
n hope she returns to singapore in the same condition as she left...

smell ya laters

2009-09-28T00:41:00.002+08:00

Nicole Scherzinger

ish she hot?
she was here in spore for f1..
damn...
should have bought a tix..
who noe..
i may have met her...
damn...

go die hamilton...
haha

smell ya laters..

2009-09-27T15:04:00.000+08:00

s:ni kire2 kasi ah?

i:yela
s:ni kire2 ikhlas ah?
i:yela
s:ni kire2 trime kaseh ah..
i:same2 ah..
s:ni kire2 mkn dulu ah..
i:eh nnti belom buka puase
s:ni kire2 ye tk ye la..

the drama skit from sinar lebaran really cracks me up..
tk kire braper anyak kali ditonton...
tetap klaka..
haha..

s:jalan2 ke kota melake
cik adik da berpunye ke?

smell ya laters

2009-09-26T03:29:00.002+08:00

have u ever been hurt?
and think back again...
what was the cause of it..
did i deserve it?
was i the one at fault in the first place?
questions with no answers always flood your minds..
and the most popular qns will be...
what if....
what if things were different?
what if i didnt have to do this?
what if she had not given up?
what if..what if..

what if i never get to see you again?
what if we grew apart and lose each other?
what if i lose out?
what if im wasting my time..
waiting for something that can never come true?
what if?

2009-09-25T03:26:00.002+08:00

hopefully..
whatever issit that im doing now...
i hope it will bear fruits for me...
coz i cant bear it anymore...

just wanna be free...

2009-09-25T00:55:00.003+08:00

2dae woke up early for adiratna's performance..
good start for u all la..
hope to see u all improve...

so the highlight..
went tamiya with sepit..
at tampines..
gerek gler dok...
but..
kite sesat kat tampines...
kenek kaco man ngan arab..
haha..
thanx krg...

haha...
my shooting star...
bought a double shaft hyper dash motor just for it...
laju dok..
at last my car faster than sepit's..
haha...
n do u noe?
kite uat kwn2 aru ngan bdk kecik...
haha..

looking for to the next time..
smell ya laters...ouh ya..
saw the car above at one of the shops..
geram sak nk bli..
lawa sak...

2009-09-24T01:47:00.001+08:00

hello ppl..
ok..
so ive spent the last hour changing this blog skin...
i think this skin is nicer than the previous one...
dont you think so?
i think so...
haha...

smell ya laters...

2009-09-21T01:46:00.002+08:00

hello hello
saye ingin mengucapkn selamat hari raye kepade sumer umat islam...

well..
the ferst dae is always the best...
or so they say...
well...
its been disappointing for me...
eventhough dudok rumah goyang kaki duet pon masok...
but seriously..
disappointing....

well..
this is the ferst raye im not celebrating at home..
coz i got no home..
tu tk pe la..
and then adik bradek sume..
tkde...

well kakak is with me...
lyk duh...
i live under her roof...
bang acit dtg kol 4...
psl tk lei angon...
bang iwan dtg mlm...
but tu tk psl coz every year hes not in the picture..
then anak kegemaran mak plak..
tido dari kol 3 pagi smalam...
abe angon magrib arie ni..
sial uh..
perangai kebabian sak..
eh..
babi pon kala la sial..
and then..
adik bradek sumer mintak maaf ngan mak...
ngan each other pon..
tapi..
anak kegemaran mak tk mintak maaf kat sesape pon...
aku kesian sak maid kakak aku...
masok biler dier..
kejot kn dier..
tanyer nk makan aper..
bibik siapkn mkn tok dier..
ngan coke skali tao..
tapi dier tk mkn...
da satu jam lebeh makanan tu terbiar...
aru nk mkn...
tk de trime kasih tk de ape..
lepas tu masok bilek tk nk klua...
sial uh...
ni mcm nyer org gi mati pon bagos la..
n i still dont understand knape mak maseh nk protect dier...
haiz...

i sooo want a family photo...
this yr ferst dae...
really saddening....

2009-09-19T03:57:00.001+08:00

so got results 2dae..
got d for everything...
and f for one..
haiz..
thats 2 module pushed back..
shall work hard...
dont want to graduate any more later...

smell ya laters...

2009-09-18T03:39:00.001+08:00

just feel like its the lowest any person can tolerate...
i dont know why...
but no matter how happy the day will turn out to be...
at the end of the day..
i will never fail..
to have this feeling of sadness...
like life is never fair to me...
always...
i will always reflect back...
thinking...
jealousy...sadness...rejected...
i dont know why but these feelings always appears at the end of the happy day...
this feeling..
this sick feeling of loneliness...
haiz..

something i wrote a few months back...
"it started off with a hello
how are you, where are you
imagine me saying things to you like
i need you, that i love you

ever since we began to drift
i only wish we could let it be

so now...how are things gonna be the same
if we both now knew that this can never be erased
cos its so hard for the both of us to let everything go..
its so hard..to let it go"

smell ya laters...

2009-09-13T02:38:00.000+08:00

ok..so time for upadates..
well..
i havent been breaking fast at home as how i wanted to...
but thats ok..
had fun nevertheless..

so today was MCC iftar..
to me..
was a successful event...
i have to admit..
this is the most relaxed committee i had ever worked with..
so relaxed that i was afraid things may not go well..
but nasib baik..
everything went smoothly..
syukur kepada tuhan..

well..
so this is the end of my role as a chairman..
but its not over..yet..
i still have an international day bazaar to organise..
ouch...
tired..
haha..
but never mind..
after this..
ill be free...
(",)

so this is my officially my 100th post for my blog..
at last smpi jugak 100..
haha..
and i would like to wish..

SELAMAT HARI RAYA
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

(padahal puase lom abes..haha..)

2009-09-01T16:54:00.000+08:00

juz when i thought that having a mobile broadband..
would make life in this place much faster...
but i guess i was wrong..
stupid broadband..
damn slow..
kate jer 2mbps..
but slow..
idiot shit..
n i can only download 3 things at once..
stupid sia..

haiz..
cant waet to move out..
and itz only the 2nd dae here...

smell ya laters

2009-08-29T19:42:00.000+08:00

bang iwan and bang acit had this arguement..
BI: eh rebus ketupat pki minyak tanah bagos
Mak: tapi nnti periok itam
BI: Jgn pki periok
BA: eh kite sume da high tech la. pki gas dapor ukn minyak tanah
BI: tapi minyak tanah murah
BA: eh gas abg harge 72 lei pki tok 3 tahun uh.
BI: cm gitu 3 tahun ah tauke..haha..

psl ketupat pon lei gado..
in the midst of shifting now..
aru jer abez buke..
nk kenek sambong in a while..
haiz..
pnat2..

and i would like to apologise to Paduka
for not being able to make it to iftar..
but if i dont help out in this shift...
my 2 bros will not be able to finish it in time..
we have to finish by 2nite..
so that the keys can be given 2morrow..
so..
gd luck to all of us..

smell ya laters...

2009-08-26T23:06:00.000+08:00

Now you're gone,
I wonder why,
You left me hear,
I think about it on,
and on, and on, and on,
and on, and on again.
I know you're never coming back,
I hope that you can hear me,
I'm waiting to hear from you..

Until i do,
You're gone away,
I'm left alone,
A part of me is gone,
And I'm not moving on,
So wait for me,
I know the day will come..

I'll meet you there,
No matter where life takes me to,
I'll meet you there,
And even if I need you here,
I'll meet you there.

this song was stuck in my head...
simple plan meet you there..

smell ya laters

2009-08-25T22:21:00.000+08:00

oo oo...sok last paper...
tk saba..haha..
i have this tradition..
whereby after my last paper..
i would alwaes go out..
ferst time it happen yr 1 sem 1 term2
went east coast after that..
then second time it happen..
yr1 sem 2 term1
went bbq after that..
then yr 1 sem 2 term 2
went out..
but forget where..
so guess where im heading 2morrow?
sepit's house!
haha..
plat tamiya..
cool kn??
haha

i dont noe wad to do now...
but i hope things go back to the wae it used to...

smell ya laters...

2009-08-24T21:57:00.001+08:00

Uploaded new post on multiply
for some reason..i cant upload pix on blogger...
idiot shit...
haha..

well smell ya laters!!

2009-08-23T01:47:00.002+08:00

this song is stuck in my head..
sumer klaka rabak nyer psl..

Tak ku hiraukan panas mentari lagi
Demi cinta kurela menanti
Takkan goyang walau badai kan melanda
Seribu tahun kutetap setia
Lupakanlah dukamu yang silam
Hulur tanganmu sambut kasihku
Mari bersama kita melangkah
Membina cinta abadi

ferst dae of puase..
when i woke up..
i thought i was on hunger strike again..
skali check2 puase..

i tink im sleep walking..
coz i have no recollection of wad i dyd in the morning...
mak ckp tadi sahur telor..
i dont even remember waking up for sahur..
oo..
scary..
haha...

Slamat Berpuase!!

2009-08-20T23:35:00.001+08:00

i would like to apologise..
apologise to titi, tiger n azi..
psl aku rase kn..
aku anyak susakn krg uh..
tk abez2 ngan kerisauan aku..
so..
i would like to sae..
sorry...

2009-08-19T01:58:00.002+08:00

u wanna know something else??
haha..
sometimes..
when u are too focused on something...
u tend to overlook what u truly have..

example..
u are too focused on getting someone or something back..
u tend to forget what u really feel...
or forget what u truly have..
i made that mistake once..
and im not making it again...
im never going back...

i wanna get back something i lost...
something that i lost while i was searching for something else...
i wanna get it back..
no matter what it takes..

emo sak im...
haha...
but thats life..
i want _____ back...

smell ya laters...

2009-08-19T00:37:00.002+08:00

so 2dae alot of things were revealed..
i have to admit..
i was quite hard...
and it was the first time that i...
no..
we confronted the situation since it happened..
and i must say..
it was quite hard...
haha..

well...
theres alot of things that needs my attention now..
smell ya laters...

2009-08-13T01:35:00.002+08:00

hais..
thought bout her for the whole dae...
cant seem to forget her..

sedarkah kau ku sayang pada mu
ku inginkan belaian darimu
tahukah kau ku sedang menunggu
kembalilah ku ingin merayu
oh..

i tried to compose something..
but this is all that came to mind..

smell ya laters...

2009-08-09T22:51:00.001+08:00

haiz...

Your attendance record shows that you have been missing classes lately. We are concerned about your absence from classes and urge you to improve your attendance record.

fcuk...
i got 2 emails and 2 letters...

one is em3..the other is tpff...
fcuk..
sch is left with a week...
and now then they start sending these...
arse...

smell ya laters...

2009-07-25T00:33:00.002+08:00

haiz..
im starting to miss everything..
im starting to miss them alot..
10 was the last time everyone gathered..
itz been 2 weeks..
i miss them...going crazy that time..
haha..
missed it...

smell ya laters...

2009-07-19T23:40:00.003+08:00

paduka just made it to the finals..
and its like..
at last saringan da abez..

i would like to congratulate my teammates...
for not giving up and constantly giving 110%..
i hope this spirit continues on...

btw..
otw alek kn..
arab uat klaka..
he hailed this taxi...
the taxi ignored him..
then he hailed another..
the taxi wanted to change shift..
he hailed another taxi behind the taxi..
but it was a merc taxi..
mahal tk jadi..
then he hailed another taxi right behind the merc taxi...
it was an suv taxi if im not rong..
arab bopian naek jer..
haha
i will be funny if u were there...

well smell ya laters...

2009-07-10T23:56:00.002+08:00

"Run baby run
dont ever look back
they'll tear us apart
if u give them the chance"

at last...
the end of our first gig..
i wont say it was damn good..
i wont say it was damn bad..
ill just say that we need loads of improvement..
haha..

now that the first gig is over...
we can focus on dikir...
and then focus back to jammings...
cause even though gig is over...
this is just the beginning..
and there are still originals to make..
haha..

so dudes and dudette...
when's the next jam??

smell ya laters!!

2009-07-04T02:54:00.001+08:00

i like this version of face down better...
cool...

smell ya laters!!

2009-07-02T23:37:00.002+08:00

to my good fren azi...
all the best sok...
sumer akn berjalan dgn lincah...
dan dgn sekelip mate...
sumer akn ok...
and everything will be over...
jgn takot jgn pape uh..
relax jer...
ko ade brother2 kat sebla ko...
pape nk jatoh kyte ade nk tangkap ko nyer...
so good lcuk 2morrow...
all the best...

~Ayim~

2009-06-28T22:49:00.001+08:00

wicked la sia..
haha...

smell ya laters

2009-06-27T22:03:00.001+08:00

so i guess this saeing is true..
only when someone is dead...
will they be missed...
and truly appreciated...

great ppl lyk van gogh...
and now..
michael jackson...
the irony of ppl...

smell ya laters...

2009-06-27T01:50:00.003+08:00

ok..
let me share a story with all of u..

theres this guy name ayim..
he was deeply in love with Reen...
but then..
being a typical guy he was..
he fooled around...
and got interested with this gerl name filia..
so ayim and filia started dating...
and then..
reen got to noe bout it..
reen gave hym 2 choices..
and ayim chose filia...

after a while..
ayim regretted dat decision..
and so..
he ditched filia...
and went for reen back...
reen accepted hym..
the ppl in sch however...
blamed filia for stealing awae sumone's boifriend...
padahal ayim was the one at fault...
but ppl chose to believe dat filia was at fault..
and dat causes filia to be lonely for the rest of her sch lyf...

2 yrs passed...
ayim and reen went their separate waes after a bitter quarrel...
2 yrs had passed...
and filia still had the scars from dat tyme..
the scars were still fresh as if it happened juz yesterdae...
n ayim was at lost..
he dont noe wad to do to make her forgive hym...

ayim sucks..rite??

2009-06-27T00:22:00.002+08:00

Teguhkn Iman Hadapi Cabaran
Budi Nk Baik Hati Nk Tabah
Mudah-mudahan Dapat Kemenangan
Bersama-sama Doa Rasul Junjungan

meh kyte kuat kn iman dan anyak berdoa...
aku kua uma srg...
harap2 aku alek pon srg ehk..
salam...

2009-06-25T02:59:00.002+08:00

went lepaking with kampung tiarap...
was fun...

went marina barrage for the ferst tyme..
dont laugh uh...
haha..
after dat..
from marina bay walked to raffles...
dudok kat boat quay and lepak...
haha...

can u believe it??
i went to fullerton hotel's toilet twice...
the receptionist was looking..
haha..

Biar beribu, musuh datang
Belom ape2, kite da telentang
biar beribu, kereta gostan
nampak chicks, kite stunt

smell ya laters!!

2009-06-17T17:39:00.004+08:00

celebrated husna's 18th belated bdae...
happie bdae..
went swensens with ihsan husna n fadhil..
then fadhil went home n met up wit didi...

the pix above at raffles mrt at 6.40 am..
haha

went butter factory at 1+...
some pix taken duirng and after butter fact...
after butter fact...
go lepak at mcdonalds at boat quay..
was a great morning...

2009-06-14T00:15:00.002+08:00

u noe sumtin...
im not supposed to read it..
but i kinda read it...
so im feeling frustrated rite now..
haha...

people and their mask...
itz lyk soooo popular..
u see it everywhere u go...
i alwaes wear a mask..
but if im not happy i tell sia..
haha..

was there a tyme..
when u wanted to tell sumone sumtin...
but is afraid that the person may tell on u??
and then there will be a huge controversial..
i hate those tymes...

aniwaes...
do u noe..
that in a love letter..
the words commonly used is not love...
but miss??
isnt it cool...

itz juz soooo saddening...

smell ya laters...

2009-06-11T21:30:00.001+08:00

congratulations???
u r congratulating us because we sold our hse??
damn u chinese...
damn u to hell..
hope u burn and rot till theres nothing lest of u kafir...

damn...

2009-06-11T01:15:00.002+08:00

nigel started this...
i want to do it too..
haha...

Marvel Super(Heroes/Villians)
Angel
Beast
Cyclops
DareDevil
Elektra
Fantastic 4
Ghost Rider
Human Torch
Iceman
Jubilee
Kingpin
Lizard
Magneto
Nightcrawler
Omega Red
Phoenix
Quicksilver
Rogue
Spiderman
The Thing
U
Venom
Wolverine
Xavier
Young Avengers
Z

well dats all for marvel...
haha...
this is childhood...

smell ya laters...

2009-06-09T22:10:00.002+08:00

2dae...
i had an aimless dae...

so had my ferst paper 2dae..
maths..
dont wanna tok bout it..

after dat..
alek ngan eera ngan kiki..
after parting with them..
i was in the bus 174..y
i wanted to alight at this bus stop to change bus..
then when reached the bus stop already..
my mind saes go..
but my body wont move...
so went all the wae to boonlay..
since i was at boonlay already..
i went jp..

at jp..
i dunno where to go..
so went to the cd shop..
in my mind..
i wanted to buy a cd..
so survey survey survey...
change of heart n never buy...

then after dat went to comics connection..
wanted to buy a psp game...
then go in..
see see...
change of heart..
never buy...

then go harvey norman...
wanted to buy printer ink...
but thinking back..
holidaes...
dont need printer..
so never buy...

then after dat..
went kiddy palace...
wanted to buy a model kit...
then survey survey survey...
change of heart..
never buy...

then went to basement...
wanted to buy waffles...
reach there..
long queue...
change of heart..
never buy..

in the end...
went mc cafe...
bought myself a Double Choco Frappe..
yum2...

haha
a really wierd dae for me..
i went to so many shops..
but got nothing...
haha...

smell ya laters..

2009-06-07T23:50:00.002+08:00

helooooooooo...
haha...
ok im bored..

fyi ppl..
im ok...
"looking back i clearly see..
wad it is dats killing me...
i had it all..."
haha

dats a song..
but i dunno wad song..
thinking back kn..
even if itz sold..
not all is a waste rite??
i can still get a drivers license from the money..
haha...
tk saba nyer...

so juz came back from iqa's bdae celebration..
fuyoh..
pnat per..
haha..
hope u had a fun dae katek..
haha..
peace...

ok i have a splitting headache...
saket sial...

haha

smell ya laters

2009-06-01T22:45:00.003+08:00

imagine...
after a dae at sch..
a dae of having fun..
then when u return home...
u r greeted by ppl u dont recognise..
and on the table..
sat documents..
documents for the house to be sold..
itz damn saddening...

imagine...
growing up 18 yrs..
18 yrs of ur lyf..
in the hse...
which is filled with plenty of memories....
n it is to be sold juz bcoz ur parents divorces...
and ur ass father wanted the money...
bitch...
i really want to bitch slap hym..

right now...
as im typing this down...
the CHINESE ppl outside is giving a cheque...
to buy the hse...
n i dont noe how much months notice we r given...
i dont noe where we are gonna stay now..
i dont noe anymore..

to encik Samuri Samat...
i really hope u r happy now...
the flat is sold..
n u r getting ur share now..
i really2 damn hope u r happy...
coz rite now..
lets juz sae u better hope u wont be seeing me...

ASS U BI HONKERS!!!!

2009-05-30T00:54:00.003+08:00

hello..
my name is imran..
i love to sleep..

haha..
im fuglishly bored...

aniwaes...
juz came back from a production..
titled: In Search of Wonderland
abg bijan was one of the actor..
n can sae..
i really learned alot..
as in..
how to act..

the production was good la..
not a waste at all..

so after dat gy bli mkn pat mac...
lepak pat memorial..
memorial mane aku tk tao la..
lepak2 smpi kol 11.40..
haha..
da lamer tk alek mlm ginie..

sumpah aku pnat gler..
haha..
fuglish!!

smell ya laters...

2009-05-25T13:40:00.002+08:00

cute kn?haha...

fierce kn??haha

NPMCC FOC '09/'10

ok so yesterdae was the dae the camp ended..
it was a great camp honestly saeing..
eventhough i was not wit my grp throughtout the whole camp..
after putting in sooo much tyme in it n watching it successful..
it was more of a satisfaction then anitin else..

and guess wad...
i reached home at 3+..
i went to sleep straight awae..
never eat..never change...never unpack..
n guess wad tyme i woke up..
6...
then next dae...haha...
cool shit or wad??
haha..

2morrow got drama....weee....
haha..

smell ya laters!!

2009-05-17T00:50:00.000+08:00

i am not a mat rep..
im a musician..
so i dont do starring..
thanx...

smell ya laters...

2009-05-12T11:36:00.004+08:00

kata yusof,"ya Allah jikalau hidup di penjara
lebih mengerti dari hidup diluar maka
aku ingin hidup di penjara yg mana aku lebeh dekat denganmu
daripada aku hidup di luar dengan manusia yg berdusta."
Allah sedang berbicara denganmu tentang sabar dan ikhlas.

-the insane guy in the prison

i juz spent my 3 hours break watching
Ayat-ayat cinta at my lappie...
tk lei buka pintu clubbie...
so pegy la dudok kat canteen..
and dis scene really means sumtin..
i lyk..
haha..

ok so now need to go for claz...

smell ya laters...

2009-05-05T23:49:00.003+08:00

ill leave things to tuhan...
i will put my extreme faith in HIM...
for HE controls fates n destiny...

i juz hope dat things will turn out well..
n i hope he will stop..
not only maruah aku..
but maruah dier pon terjage..
so plz he-who-shall-not-be-named...
psl stop it if u hadnt already...

smell ya laters..

2009-05-02T23:52:00.003+08:00

the superstar

zizi n me

fee and me

ok so ive been absent from my blog..
busy uh..
mcc is needing my fullest attention..
n my fullest attention i will give...

so went out picnic wit main comm..
at Jurong Lake Park..
tot it was goin to be another ordinary lepak dae...
then gy jumpe fee n man...
tk tao nk gy mane...
pegy clarke quay...
then ternmpk bende tu..

GMX Bungee Jump..
i swear..
itz damn fking best..
haha...

From left
Fee, Me, Zizi

it was once in a lifetime need to try experience..
n juz in case u r wondering where man is..
lets juz sae..
he hates ferst hand experience..
haha..

so after the ride...
gy lepak pat boat quay...
lepak2 then alek then gy skul...
and guess wad..
i left my phone in the cab..
lari la aku cm bdk bodo lmbai2..
haha...
then fahmi kol my phone..
apek angkat..
naseb dier patah alek..
if not...
hp=bye2 seh..
haha...

so 2morrow ade show..
then mlm nie tido pat loft...
ish..
nk jakon skjp uh..
tk pena tido loft..
haha...

ok smell ya laters...

2009-04-26T23:52:00.004+08:00

Kembali Pulang - Kangen Band

Bintang terlihat terang
Saat dirimu datang
Cinta yang dulu hilang
Kini kembali pulang

Lihatlah dia mulai bernyanyi
Coba merangkai mimpi
Cinta yang dulu pergi
Kini datang kembali

*
Wajahmu mengingatkanku
dengan kekasihku dulu
Wajahmu mengingatkanku
Dengan masa laluku

Reff:
Kekasih yang dulu hilang
Kini dia telah kembali pulang
Akan kubawa dia terbang
Damai bersama bintang
Kekasih yang dulu hilang
Kini dia telah kembali pulang
Betapa senang kudendangkan
Dan takkan kulepaskan

dont ask me why..
i suddenly felt lyk posting thiz song...

smell ya laters

2009-04-21T00:06:00.003+08:00

haha...
even now...
im still very manje wit my mom...

i told her
"mak, kwn yan ajak masok anugerah"

she said
"pergi la..tapi kao kene pandai curyk2 nafas.
ko kene tao bawa mcm2 lagu.
kalo org tao nyanyi lagu2 aslikn, sumer lagu dier lei nyanyi."

n i was...
ouh ok...
haha...

never tot dat she would actually let me sing..
she hates my singing...
haha...

smell ya laters...