Hmm..first time blogging from my iphone..

Im so bored and tired at work..really cant wait for payday..haiya..

Hw m i dealing with life? Just like that..its like im living but at the same time..i feel dead..haha..dunno la..whatever happens happens..we cant change the flow of time..once u waste a second, u can never make up for it..once u waste an opportunity, it wont come knocking on your door..only certain exceptions are allowed though..

Anyways..today when i was bored at work and fyi i still am..i reminise my past about my very fun ex-gf, the beloved Qamarina Hanani..and until now..im still not happy with that insect-eyed azmeer..seriously im still not happy with him..

I knw after we broke up it was none of my freaking business to keep track of their lives..but i wanted to..and seriously..im not happy with him until now..he hits her drags her n causes physical abuse to her..to me that aint love bitch..to me, that is obsessed..worse of all u made her pregnant and have a daughter who is very very cute btw..u want her to go abortion and what did you do? Sit one corner and relek..work one day dont like quit..work one week dnt like quit..then u let Qamarina do all the work to save up for the abortion..and shes pregnant and you're not.......kau bodoh pe?

But if you are still with her taking care of YOUR daughter i dont mind..but u are enjoying life with another freaking person now how wrong is that? U never give nafkah..u club with your girlfriend..is this how beliah masjid behaves? Bring shame only..

And seriously, while u r out there enjoying urself, Qamarina is working her ass off just to support YOUR child..she works at a retail shop 7 days per week..7 days..and when she had her pay of $1600 from her literally 30 days of working, she is very happy..but are your doung anything to support your daughter? I dont think so! Seriously i pity my ex..not that she needs my pity coz she has a bf but that is a different story..her bf is a great guy btw..

I told her to upgrade herself and get o lvls..speaking of which, she dropped her o lvls when she was 17 coz you made her pregnant stupid! Im so pissed coz your destroyed her life! Argh..anws..i told her to upgrade herself and she said she aint got the luxury to study coz she has to support her daughter..its sad..stupid azmeer..go rot!

Haiya..when i was with Qamarina..i never lay a strong force on her..she was the one doing all the hittings and the slappings..i was the one abused..maybe its karma for abusing me? Hahaha..joking..

So guess ill just end my random rant here then..have to get back to work before they start to look for me..smell ya laters..

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Ghost of Girlfriends Past

Ive been having a series of dreams involving my ex-lovers.

these dreams were simultaneous

and came right after the other in pairs.

these dreams came right after nani left.

2nd Ex..

1st dream

Qamarina Hanani bte Sulaiman

(found the picture in this blog's archives)

(taken when i was 16)

i was at her place.

apparently there was an event going on.

open house or something.

however, i wasnt there as a guest.

i was carrying my son.

my unborn son.

qaina was my wife.

we welcomed guest together..

and i remember clearly that her mother was there as well..

1st Ex

2nd dream

Nur Suhairina bte Samsudin

(forgive me for there are no photo of us together)

I was in the MRT with her.

she was leaning again the glass panel..

while i was in front of her in close proximity.

we were talking with each other.

the train stopped at this station..

and she went off leaving me behind..

all i could do was helplessly watch her leave.

3rd Dream

Nur Atiqa bte Jaafar

(photo taken during NPMCCFOC 2009)

surprise surprise..

she is not an ex-girlfriend.

however she was someone

who i was serious with at this one point of time..

now no more la..

now we have this love/hate relationship with each other..

but nevertheless..

still very good friends.

back to the dream.

we were in my room.

we were talking about stuffs.

i was on my bed and she on the opposite bed.

then a huge black figure appeared in front of us.

she started to panic and cry.

i called out to her to come to me.

i placed my hands on the side of her head..

and placed my forehead against hers..

i started to say prayers out loud.

3rd Ex

4th Dream

Nur Diyana bte Ramlan

(photo taken from this blog's archive)

(i dont store her photos no more)

i was in a musical.

singing and dancing on an open outdoor stage.

when everything was over..

she greeted me..

i was expecting someone else but since she was there,

i went to sit with her.

apparently it was new years eve or something

cause suddenly fireworks lit up the dark skies.

in my head..i was asking myself

"where is nani? why isnt she here?"

then dee looked at me and ask me..

"u have to choose between me or nani."

i answered

"it has and always been nani"

i got up..and then i woke up..

these 4 dreams are the dreams that i had of my exes..

up to date..

i still havent dream of nani yet..

i know dreams are caused by setan..

they play with your mind when u sleep.

but not all dreams are their plaything.

sometimes..dreams carry significant meanings..

if all dreams have a meaning hidden behind it..

i would really like to know..

what is the reason for me having these dreams..

ppl tend to say that dreams are opposites of what is happening in reality..

if that is the case..

then how does dejavu occurs?

ppl say when you dream..

your soul wonders around from place to place..

im guessing our souls can travel through time as well since it can cause dejavu..

but is it really possible?

whatever theory there are behind dreams..

i would really like to knw why i had these 4 dreams..

smell ya laters..

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