the thought never comes to mind..
and i thought i was ok with it..
until the conversations i had with my friends about the matter...
dont worry they dont know bout it..
just that they brought up the matter...
and that was when it bothered me..
i needed to know..
and now i do..
the feeling is like having your heart stabbed over and over again...
6 times...
those feelings of ecstasy should never have existed in the first place...
and then..
it happened..
i didnt wash my face..
but my cheeks were wet..
and soon it was drenched..

my mind is like a maze..
or a puzzle..
i dont know what to think..
and everything just seems god damn confusing..
i really dont know what to think anymore...
haiz...