Day 9: The One I Want to Meet




well..to be honest..
i never met 3 of my grandparents..
yayi karsoon passed away when i wasnt born..
nyayi sarni passed away months before i was born..
and yayi mo aka samat passed away when i was 2..
hard for me to remember you know..

why do i want to meet them...
i never felt what it was like to have a grandparent being there for you..
true my only grandmother is still alive..
but im not that close to her..
cause she actually support my dad getting another wife..
cause of that i dont get along..
she is 80+ now..
cant walk..
cant talk properly..
but went to visit her during raye..
well every raye i visit her...
and she remembers me..
but she only remembers me as a kid..
so i had to tell her that it was me..
i said..
"nyayi..ni yan..yan...imran nyayi.."
and when i said imran..
she was like oh yan..da besar ko..
she didnt say it fluently though..
just barely make out the words myself..
and my brother who was raised by my aunt..
she remembers him as well..
even though im not close to her...
there is a sense of love towards her..
afterall..shes my granmother...

and nyayi sarni..
i never met her..
just listened to the many stories about her through my mom, aunts, and sis...
and my eldest bro also..
and the thing is..
when i was a kid..
about 4..
i had a dream about how she passed away..
it was like she was just in front of me..
and when i told my mom of that dream..
she said it was my grandmother that passed away..
the exact same way as my dream was..
so yeah..
mom have a picture of nyayi sarni months before she passed away..
mom also have a picture of yayi karsoon..
the picture was and still is old..
my mom was like 6 in that photo...

so guess thats it..
i really want to meet my grandparents...