i said some stuffs that i dont know would make such a big deal..
since this is an open blog i shall not say wad..
i said it on twitter..
only those who follows me can read it..
and its 47..
the fren whom i told it to..
had 37 followers..
out of which only 26 are people and not ads and such..
that makes a total of 73 people..
and some are overlapped with mine..
so lets just put it at 70..
70 people read what i wrote about you..


and then u had to take revenge and humiliate me on fb..
lets see..
your friend list makes a total of 422 people..
422 people saw what you have to wrote about me..
and if you think they dont know its about me..
look again..
u put my name on it..
so 422 saw u cursing and swearing at me..
and only 70 people saw me saying that you are jealous..
and u say i have no right to be pissed about this..

haiz..
what to do right?
i mean..
who am i?
im just a replaceable guy in your life...
you are still young and naive..

Day 10: The One I Dont Talk to as Often


so guess right now i will tell you guys more about her..
her name is husna fatinah..
sometimes people call her haswah..
haha..
and we have been friends since sec 1..

well we didnt start it off as friends..
when we start it off...
she hated me..
hated me for reasons i dont know..
then sec 2 we talked to each other..
cause we were in the same group for IPW..
from there we became friends..
ouh ya..
she was my dance partner for sec 1 campfire..
haha..

we were classmates throughout secondary school..
so common sense that we are best friends la..
and we share our secrets..
heck we even enrolled for driving together..
and now both of us are stuck at driving..together..
haha..
i used to talk to her alot..
from anything sensible to anything stupid..
just name it la..
but ever since we got into np..
we seldom talk..
we are in the same campus under same school..
and we hardly talk or meet..
guess that is my fault for being busy...
sorry na..

anyways..
its been a while since she and me and fadhil and ihsan really had a hang out...
wish we could do it some days..
yeah?

Day 9: The One I Want to Meet




well..to be honest..
i never met 3 of my grandparents..
yayi karsoon passed away when i wasnt born..
nyayi sarni passed away months before i was born..
and yayi mo aka samat passed away when i was 2..
hard for me to remember you know..

why do i want to meet them...
i never felt what it was like to have a grandparent being there for you..
true my only grandmother is still alive..
but im not that close to her..
cause she actually support my dad getting another wife..
cause of that i dont get along..
she is 80+ now..
cant walk..
cant talk properly..
but went to visit her during raye..
well every raye i visit her...
and she remembers me..
but she only remembers me as a kid..
so i had to tell her that it was me..
i said..
"nyayi..ni yan..yan...imran nyayi.."
and when i said imran..
she was like oh yan..da besar ko..
she didnt say it fluently though..
just barely make out the words myself..
and my brother who was raised by my aunt..
she remembers him as well..
even though im not close to her...
there is a sense of love towards her..
afterall..shes my granmother...

and nyayi sarni..
i never met her..
just listened to the many stories about her through my mom, aunts, and sis...
and my eldest bro also..
and the thing is..
when i was a kid..
about 4..
i had a dream about how she passed away..
it was like she was just in front of me..
and when i told my mom of that dream..
she said it was my grandmother that passed away..
the exact same way as my dream was..
so yeah..
mom have a picture of nyayi sarni months before she passed away..
mom also have a picture of yayi karsoon..
the picture was and still is old..
my mom was like 6 in that photo...

so guess thats it..
i really want to meet my grandparents...